Frustration

I had a very frustrating day today. There was an issue within a community for which I work that lead to the need for an apology. Not everyone though this apology was necessary, but it was. Now I fear many things-- mainly, that people blame me for creating more drama, when all I was hoping to do was make amends and allow everyone who was hurt to move forward.

I was driving home from work and I was just so angry still about how some of my peers had acted and reacted to what went on. I was at a loss to understand how anyone could be on the other side of this "argument."

I had a moment when I realized that I had to give up these feelings-- of anger, of frustration, of confusion-- over to God. I had a short conversation with Him and prayed the Serenity Prayer, and I instantly felt better. However, when I got home, more issues emerged in regards to what had been bothering me, and now I find myself still unable to process all these feelings. I am disappointed in the people who I thought were good. I am so confused as to how some people cannot see that even if you didn't mean to hurt another person with your actions, when your actions hurt someone YOU HAVE TO APOLOGIZE.

Anyway, I am writing this in hopes that it will reaffirm what I felt earlier this afternoon. I did what I knew was right, some people cannot understand that, but many people will.

God, grant me the patience to accept the things I cannot change,
The courage to change the things I can,
And the wisdom to know the difference.